Quarks of light


A Near-Death Experience, What I Saw That Opened My Heart.

By Rob A. Gentile

Dying was the easy part. When I experienced a sudden heart attack at the age of 56, my brother-in-law, Frosty, delivered a message of peace. He had committed suicide, but he wanted his family to know that he was okay. This experience filled my soul with light and I longed to stay there with him. That was not to be, however—my wife and beautiful special-needs child needed me to survive.

But how could I ever be part of this world again? I now faced the agonizing process of seeking a new heart. The physical challenges of awaiting transplant kept mounting and as my heart grew weaker, my body finally gave out again, and I entered the Ethereal a second time.

In what felt like the next moment, I was taken up into a timeless place. I found myself inside a shapeless, formless vacuum of sorts, an unending, infinite vastness. I was everywhere at once, like I was made of sand and someone picked me up and threw the grains of my being into a strong wind, scattering me across an infinite, timeless expanse. I was connected to the vast wisdom of the universe—all of it, without words.

Then I saw and simultaneously became part of a gigantic web that covers the Earth and stretches into infinity. I could not explain exactly what this web was, except that it looked like it was made of trillions of neurons in a vast, interactive network that binds us all. Curiously, some parts of the web were brighter, some dim, and some completely dark. I also saw my special-needs daughter, perfect, whole, and full of light.

The most important message I received was of unity, oneness, and our real identity.

That night was a breakthrough moment and shortly after that, my doctors found a heart for me just in time. After a successful transplant, intense feelings now connected me to the donor, and I felt compelled to unravel the mystery. What were the forces that united us? When I finally met the friends and family of my donor heart, a dual message came through: hope in clinging to the light that connects us all, and a warning for our day.

This journey provides a roadmap for overcoming adversity, staying in spirit, and addressing the most troubling questions of our time. I share the insights learned from my spiritual awakening.

Foreword by

Jean-Ronel Corbier, MD

Pediatric Neurologist

CEO and Founder of the Brain Restoration Clinic

I was at work in my clinic one morning in January 2016, when I received a call from Melanie Gentile. It was not about Melanie’s daughter, Maria. She has a neurodegenerative condition called Rett syndrome which affects girls almost exclusively with neurological symptoms that start during infancy. Among other things, the condition is associated with seizures that can be hard to control. I therefore thought that Melanie was calling me regarding a seizure that Maria was having. I have been Maria’s pediatric neurologist for many years and have treated her for her seizures which have included multiple trips to the hospital (including ER, hospitalization and ICU admission) however, this call was different. It was not regarding Maria, but instead Rob, Melanie’s husband. Rob was in the hospital fighting for his life.

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